Failure or Success?

That is an interesting question and I guess it depends on how you define failure and success. I have been afraid of success for most of my life even though I have been quite successful. And yet I feel like such a failure. I cannot seem to find “my way” in life anymore. And yet I am still here. Why? I ask myself. Why am I still here if I feel that I am such a failure and yet have been successful? What is my purpose? To learn from my mistakes? Or to learn from my successes? I have no idea and that is the question that plagues me every day.