We are all human and we all make mistakes. Some mistakes are small and some are humongous. The fact that we make mistakes is part of being human but being punished for making the mistake is horrific. It is horrific when you make a mistake and you own it, apologize for it, try to make amends for it, but nothing is good enough. You get punished over and over and over again. Because the person who is punishing you wants you to suffer. Wants you to feel ashamed and wants you to take on all of their feelings rather than deal with their own feelings. It is easy for them to punish you so they feel better. How does one move on from being punished when one has owned the mistakes? When one has explained what was happening for them? When one has explained what she needed at that time? Would killing herself make the mistake less to the person who was on the receiving end? Would that help end all the pain and suffering? Would that help stop the punishment? I don’t know but still being punished for something one did a long time ago is horrifically painful in it’s self. Isn’t it enough that the person who made the mistake has to live with that for the rest of their lives? I guess not.
Namaste, my friends.
The "SEMI" Traveller 